I’m a mess

The title says it all.
I’m a mess. A tea-total mess. I hurt all over. I’m exhausted to the point of no return, and I’m starving to death.

My average daily caloric intake is around 600 calories per day. I can’t eat because for 21 days and counting, I haven’t been able to taste food. 

My break week from meds didn’t seem like much of a break. I managed to get up to my LLMD’s office last week to get a Meyers Cocktail IV which helped for about a day. Then back into the abyss.

I’m so sick of being sick and complaining. I hate myself right now.

I just want my life back.



4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Rebecca
    Jan 07, 2014 @ 13:35:51

    I wish there was something I could say that would help. I’m sending lots of love your way Mic.


  2. SRB
    Jan 07, 2014 @ 16:18:21

    I hate this for you SO MUCH. I wish there was someone’s ass I could kick. 😦


  3. someday-soon
    Jan 07, 2014 @ 16:21:37



  4. Arch Mama
    Jan 07, 2014 @ 21:51:32

    Your feelings are so understandable, Mic. It’s okay to feel a mess. You will get through this. Impossible to feel that way right now while you’re so underneath it all, I know. But I also know you, and I know you can do this.


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